What Do You Do If the Pieces Don’t Heal?

What Do You Do If the Pieces Don’t Heal?

What do you do if the pieces don’t heal? What if you don’t heal from your last love—the one who walked away, the one who cut you out? People are right. There are so many reasons I shouldn’t still be broken. So many reasons I shouldn’t still be so in love.

But no matter how I twist, turn, bend, or try to mend, the pieces just remain pieces. Sharp. Jagged. Unyielding.

It’s been almost two years. Two years and I’ve healed little to none. I’ve tried everything. Self-help, therapy, casual dating, casual hookups. All of it leaves me feeling less than. Not healed. Not better. Not stronger.

I’ve done the alone thing—no hookups, no dating—and it’s the same. I’ve engaged the world. I’ve pulled away from the world. Still the same.

What if it’s possible…? What if it is just maybe possible that some things you never heal from? That you never get over? That you never get better?

Inside, there’s an emptiness. A lack. The absence of the most beautiful being I’ve ever beheld. Well…outside of myself, of course. But nothing—no one, no activity, work, hookup, dating, distraction—comes close to mending it. More often than not, it makes it worse.

What do you do when your heart won’t let go? When your brain says it’s time, but your heart, your soul, your spirit say no? Where do you go with that? How do you move on when they won’t?

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